So happy together

Cutler’s final spinal tap labs came back and unfortunately they weren’t completely clean so we are in line for another one next week.  The doctor said there is nothing to worry about as we are still going in the direction we need to be heading and that there were so few.  So no big concerns right now other than the fact that Cutler has to get stuck again, but at least he is asleep when it happens.

Now that Cutler is finished with this round of chemo he finally is going to get a mostly undisturbed evening of sleep, which hopefully means I will get the same if work can settle down.  Last night was a pretty rough night for me emotionally.  I think it is all starting to settle in that the family will be split up for a bit and that is starting to become harder and harder to accept.  I miss being able to lay on the floor with both of my boys.  I miss the smile on Cutler’s face when Melanie walks around the corner with him in the mornings after getting him out of bed.  I miss playing with Mason a little extra more to avoid changing a dirty diaper :), I miss a very large number of things about how simple our life was with all of us in the same house, but I realize that in the long run this is just a minor blip on the radar so we build on Culter’s strength and push on.